Some days I just don’t feel like it.
I pop up before my alarm with full intentions on being Instagram-worthy productive to hit a mental block by mid-morning. It ain’t even noon yet and I feel like crossing the short distance between my bed and desk to flop onto my pillows and take a nap I haven’t even earned yet. #EntrepreneurProblems
I left a full time job over a year ago and have been in control of my full time routine since. There are moments I wish I had someone to answer to simply so that the burning questions I have in my head could be met with an answer.
Instead, I spend hours trying to uncover the answer – leading to my desire to nap.
It’s in this moment I feel guilty. Ultimately, in these growing pain moments, I feel the guilt of not doing enough. Not being out there enough. Not learning quickly enough. Not getting more checks enough. Not enough.
The entrepreneurial journey, whether you’re in day one or day 50,000, doesn’t shed these moments of “what the hell did I do and what am I supposed to do next?” No one knows everything, and those four words are both comforting and annoying as hell.
Lets be honest, we spend the better part of our lives trying to dissect, reconstruct, and understand every miniscule detail possible whether it be in business or relationships.
We have voracious appetites for information and a need to know that stepping to the left is the right step.
Fellow creatives, know that not knowing –though frustrating – will also pass. Some days you’re going to have to succumb to that nap because you’re brain won’t always comply to finesse the work. Take stock of yourself and know that this isn’t the end of world. Another day will arrive and a new idea, execution strategy, or answer will arrive.
I’m annoyed in writing this but as a reminder to you and to myself, remember to be patient.